From Rock Bottom to Radiance: My Journey of Healing, Resilience, and Returning to Purpose

By Sonya Lee

I've always known I was here to do something bigger.

At just eleven years old I had this deep knowing—"I'm not ready to die yet."

I was sitting in the middle of a monastery, with all the simplicity and quietness around me, and I had this overwhelming sense: "You cannot heal the world from behind monastery walls."

You see, I grew up in a Buddhist monastery. I was raised by monks and nuns and lived a life of ritual, discipline, and spiritual instruction. But my fate, it would appear, would not be a life of robes and seclusion. It would be messy, public, hurtful, and deeply human.

Surviving First, Thriving Later

When I left the monastery, I had no concept of what I was supposed to do. My parents had abandoned me and I did not have a plan. Survival was of the utmost importance. So I did what I had to do: I got a corporate job.

I landed a career in web design—eventually working my way up at Warner Brothers. Yes, Harry Potter magic really ran through my designs. I climbed the ranks fast. Director of Web Design. UX leader. Chief Experience Officer. Even COO for a time. I launched startups. I founded nonprofits. I consulted.

And on paper, I had "made it."

But I wasn't tuning in to my intuition. I was not listening to that higher call.

Breaking Wide Open

The unraveling started when one of my startups fell apart—we lost funding, and I lost direction. Then I miscarried. My partner left me two months later. Everything I had built broke apart. I was absolutely shattered.

I remember lying on the floor and bargaining with God: "You obviously set this up. So what do you want from me?"

he answer was clear.

"I want you to be with Me every day."

And that's when things changed.

From Hustle to Healing

I started rebuilding my life, not from strategy, but from Spirit. I got back in touch with that part of me that had always known how to listen. 

I was a reiki master in 1998. So I returned to that practice. 

I began teaching channeling workshops. I talked to Spirit Guides. I did animal communication. I said to the Universe, "You tell me what you want me to do. I'll do it. Because obviously, you know something I don't."

I had no backup plan or family. No corporate title felt appropriate anymore. I was starting over again—but this time, I wasn't alone. I was guided.

Yet, life tested me one more time. I met someone else. He promised me a child. Then he left too.

And again, I turned to God.

This time, instead of spiraling, I recovered.

It was simply a matter of taking the time to tune in to Divine direction and obey the orders.

Becoming the Channel

I live in harmony with Spirit today. I'm completing my book, Channels of Light, and doing the work I came into the world to do—bridging the mystical and the mainstream. I don't have a conventional career. I have a calling.

Then I developed my own healing modality that was a departure from reiki that is my practice now. It’s quantum healing using holograms.

My days look really different now. I spend my time in deep self-care. I practice what I preach: that healing isn't a breakthrough, it's a devotion.

If You're in the In-Between…

If you're in the breakdown right now… if your life feels like it's falling apart and you have no idea what's next—please know this:

You can quickly shift things when you connect with Source/Universal Intelligence

Learn to develop your intuitive abilities including clairvoyance, clairsentience, and claircognizance

Establish healthy boundaries with people in your life

Combine spiritual practice with practical daily living

You don't need to have it all together.

You just have to say yes to something more.

That's what I did. And I'm still here—living proof that rock bottom is where the light gets in.

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